Not many more days in this country and I am feeling bittersweet. I am ready to go home and back to my friends, family and routine of life and most of all Church!! I have missed my church family beyond measure. I have missed, almost as much, fellowship. God has given me such a wonderful group of friends in Leavenworth and I am so excited to laugh, play, pray and worship with them again!
My heart begins to ache when I think that when I get home that just down the street and around a couple of corner's there will not be a family of 9 that I so love. But thank God Lennie will be home and my heart will not ache near as much when I have his arms and shoulder's to lean upon. God has shown me there are many other's that need Lennie's and my love and so God here we are. Only 6 more days and we will be in literal paradise loving and enjoying those nine precious people. We will take each moment given to us. We shall take every hug, kiss and conversation given to us in those 10 days we are with them, and make them last until we see them again. Yes, bittersweet, but that is part of this journey called life. We have no complaints. I was just thinking today, God forbid something happens to our plane...one way or the other we will be HOME!
I am so glad I came to be with Lennie. It has been a joy and like a second honeymoon. We never imagined we would have this opportunity and that is why we ran with it. We have loved being in our little nest and just being free to do what we want to do, when we want to do it, and just relaxing and seeing things new and old. Literally in every sense of the words. It has been a special gift from Heaven and we thank God everyday for this time we have had. I know Lennie would stay if I did not need to have my next knee replacement. In a marriage there is give and take and He said it is now his time to give. I thank Him for that because I am ready for this last knee to be new again!! I want to run, at least in my mind, and not have any pain! Ha! Hey, have I said it enough...I am blessed.
I say this often because I do not deserve any of this. I am would be a fool if I thought any different. The love and mercy that God has shown me in this walk down the road called life truly humbles me and brings tears to my eyes. ME....God are you sure...He is ....He does not make mistakes. I read in Spurgeon yesterday how when we think the light is out in our hearts...God can still see it ...why...He IS the Light and He put the Light there.........that gives me hope and courage.........that He knows me so much better than I know myself, especially when I walking wounded. This past month I was wounded by words. Words that I only can forget by running to God almost everyday and saying take this from me! I must remember that I am a creation of the Potter and all cracks can be repaired, ha! amen!
I do not know if I will be back on before I leave. We have much to do, but if it is going to snow a foot, than maybe I will have plenty of time, ha! Tomorrow night is Lennie's going away. He will be missed. I do not think I know anyone with a better work ethic other than my father and Lennie's father. They wanted to give him a gift....nope....he cannot receive gifts, it is a "rule" and so with Lennie it is about integrity...his boss could not understand it but Lennie just said, "boss this is something I cannot do with a peaceful heart." That is my Lennie. God knew what kind of man I needed one to keep me walking the straight and narrow. Someone who would put up with me for 38 years. I just hope we will have 38 more. Those are things that only God knows. But one can wish, hope and pray about.
I have rambled enough. Did I say, I have been blessed? :)
Tshcuss,
Debby
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